Quick Lemon-Iced Yellow Cake
I've shared a lot here, but not quite everything. I've hinted
at some darker
times a few years ago, but that story has to unfold in a more complete way than it can here -- when the time is right. The short version is that I was on a tightrope over a bottomless pit for months at a time; God led me, walking backwards with His hands on either side of my face, saying, "Just keep your eyes on me. Don't look down. Don't stop walking. Just keep your eyes on me." I've never felt closer to Him or further from everyone else.
Some people think of the struggle with suicidal thoughts as weakness or immaturity instead of a legitimate impasse where your pain has exceeded your coping resources
. In a moment of crisis, you need one thing: a resource (someone you can call, something you can read/watch, something you can do) that will distract you and comfort you for just
long enough to deescalate, to get to a point where you are able to put one foot in front of the other on your tightrope again. The resource doesn't have to solve any problems. It just has to carry you to the point where you are able to wait for time to change your circumstances, like it always, always does.
So right now, I want to provide a list of things that make me feel like living. I'm not a medical professional and I can't know what's best for you, but I hope it will help you pass those crucial moments to read through this list. If one doesn't apply to you, don't let it take you down a sad road -- just move on to the next one. And please add to the list in the comments below. What are things you wouldn't want to miss out on? Things that sustain you in the darkest times? Every one of these things should be hopeful, positive, and affirming. Let's get started!
Lemon Shortbread Crumble Bars: The ULTIMATE Lemon Lover's Dessert!
I wrote this post as part of the Plugrá Butter Brigade. Thanks, Plugrá, for sponsoring this post and for making my favorite butter!
Do you guys brush your dog's teeth? And if so, when? When the crap do you do that? Just to be clear, this isn't a rhetorical question. I need an answer.
And to be clearer, I want you to respond, I know, right? I KNOW. When do people do things like that?
and not, I do it twice a day: in the morning right after churning my butter and puréeing my organic baby food for the day, and in the evening right before I settle in to hand-weave baskets for my Etsy shop.
Thanks to Philadelphia Cream Cheese for sponsoring this post.
Lemon Blueberry Fluff Bars
Home Ec. messed me all up. Do you remember Home Economics class? Where you learned to wash dishes and bake cookies and parent an egg-with-a-face-drawn-on for a week? The teacher didn’t realize that egg babies are easily replaced after regrettable incidents on the bus. Ahem.
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Lemon Blueberry Shortbread Cheesecake Dip
We need to talk about Scattergories and Dessert Dip.
First off, Scattergories. I invited some friends over for a board game brunch to try out party food ideas with the bajillion (roughly) new Town House cracker varieties and we played Scattergories, one of my favorite games. You roll a letter and then have to come up with words that start with that letter for each prompt on your list. The prompts are things like sports teams or things you put in the refrigerator. I'm usually great at it, but have you ever rolled an I? I thought J was the hardest letter, but I gave it a run for its money. About a minute into the round, someone paused and announced, "There are no words that start with I." Perhaps that's a touch hyperbolic, but at that moment, I was tempted to agree.
Also, don't think for one second that you're the only clever cookie writing down ascot for things you wear that start with "A." Because every single person wrote down ascot. How does that happen? How is ascot still part of our vernacular?